Archive for October, 2010

because i can

Posted by joana 31 Oct 2010 4 Comments »
because i can

take a look at these chubby little feet. don’t you just want to eat them? well maybe you don’t, but i love me some baby toes (“toesies” in mommy language).

so as i was taking these little feet pictures and thinking about how excited i was to have them in my picture archives and journal it on my blog, a wave of gratitude washed over me. you see, there was a time in the not so distant past, that i would have given anything to have the time for such luxuries.

(rewind back to Oct. 2005) in my single mom days i would get up every morning at 5:30 to get ready for my full time job as a dental assistant. i got jas up to get ready for a busy day as a 3rd grader, and waited til the last second to coax little 2 year old van out of bed to be at daycare by 6:30. it always made me sad to wake up a little baby so early in the morning.

i walked him into his classroom, hugged him tight, and told him i loved him and would be back soon. being a shy, apprehensive little boy he stood there timidly clutching his blanket, as the lump in my throat felt like it would burst.

when i left the room there was a two-way mirror where i would watch him for a few minutes on my way back to the car. he soon figured out that he could see my  my silhouette and knew i was there watching. one day he walked over and put his hand on the window. i put my hand to the window to touch his as he gave me a sad little “mommy don’t go” look. after that it was our daily ritual and although it ripped my heart out, i was glad that at least he wasn’t screaming for me not to go, that would’ve killed me. a tender mercy from Heavenly Father.

i would wait until i got in the car to cry, only taking comfort in knowing that he had his blankie with him (the next best thing to mom), some nice teachers, and that Heavenly Father was watching over him while i couldn’t. but still. i’m his mom, it made me so sad that i was missing out on his little life all day. then i dropped jas off at the elementary school to wait in the office with all the other “working parent kids” til school started, and hurried off to be to work by 7.

after a very long 8 + hours i anxiously returned to pick up my treasures, and then did everything i could  to get the most out of the time i had with them until bedtime. then after bedtime it was dishes, laundry, cleaning, bills, etc- you know, things that you usually have help with, except i was doing it alone. and even though Heavenly Father was with me all the while, it was still really hard, and left no time for documenting little toes and such.

this went on for almost 3 years until i met my amazing husband, who gives me all the love and support that i need to be a stay at home mom and loves that he’s able to take care of all of us. there’s not a day that goes by that i don’t thank my Heavenly Father for my wonderful life. He really has blessed me so much.

so, initially when i was taking these pictures today i thought – “who takes pictures of their kids chubby feet and puts them on their blog?”  and then these memories flooded my mind, and i thought- “me.”

“because i can.”

we’re so scary…

Posted by joana 29 Oct 2010 2 Comments »
we're so scary...

good times at the trunk-or-treat last night. more pics coming soon…

little sis

Posted by joana 27 Oct 2010 1 Comment »
little sis

thanks for the pj’s vovo’! she looks adorable

you might not think this is funny…

Posted by joana 26 Oct 2010 2 Comments »
you might not think this is funny...

but jas and i were laughing our butts off when we found this picture the other day!
so take a look at the picture above. just a nice little shot of james frederick backing out of the driveway right?

a little closer up and he’s starting to look a little strange.

zoom in a little more, and holy crap- we didn’t know Voldemort drove a beat up white blazer too!

ha! we seriously couldn’t stop laughing. but i’m not laughing about the fact that my camera takes pictures like this (no detail) from only a few feet away!

more pics of the photo shoot

Posted by joana 24 Oct 2010 4 Comments »
more pics of the photo shoot

i’m saving our family shot for Christmas cards…so you’ll have to wait:)

me and my boy

Posted by joana 22 Oct 2010 Comments Off
me and my boy

goodbye weasel wagon

Posted by joana 20 Oct 2010 2 Comments »
goodbye weasel wagon

apparently my dear husband used to be known as “the weasel” in another life. i guess he did everything he could to get out of things, dodge responsibility and such. he was the guy who “forgot” his wallet at lunch and was like, “dude, i left my wallet in my other pants, can you get this one for me?” (i can honestly say that i have never met “the weasel”, but i’m pretty sure he’d be gone super quick with a nice little rodent trap:)

anyways, they named his car after him. the weasel wagon was famously bought for $750 and ran like a champ for 4 years. well, maybe “champ” is too strong a word, but he did take us out on our first date, drove freddy back and forth to my apartment every day before we got married, and served as our second car up until now. the ww has been on it’s last leg for a while now, when finally he decided to die- leaving his name sake stuck at the side of the road.

so today we said goodbye with tears in our eyes (yay, now we get a new car!) as the big bearded tatoo guy drove it up on the tow truck. but we donated it to a nice charity that will benefit schools and kids, which will hopefully ease the sting of our sadness.

adios weasel wagon, hope you have a happy next life.

da punkin’ patch

Posted by joana 19 Oct 2010 Comments Off
da punkin' patch

in case you were wondering…

Posted by joana 18 Oct 2010 1 Comment »
in case you were wondering...

he finished the race. he ran 100 miles in 29 hours 41 minutes! i was in shock.

not that i didn’t have all the faith in the world that he would try his hardest, i just didn’t think it was physically possible for a 62 year old dude who just started running 2 years ago, to actually finish a race like this. he never ceases to amaze me. i should’ve known.

when i heard the news from christine (who was with him during the race along with trisha and mom), i started crying because i was so happy and proud of him, and also wishing that i could’ve been there. i was glad to hear that trisha and christine played him some mp3′s that i sent  to boost his spirits while he was running (like “eye of the tiger” and some “rocky’s” songs), and that i was able to pass along some ideas to them that i would’ve done if i were there (thanks for representin’ guys). i could just imagine the cloud 9 he was floating on. i was so happy for him.

i gave him a pep talk before he started the race. “now just remember, this is your first attempt at a race like this, just go into it knowing that you’re going to learn some great lessons for your next race. don’t worry about finishing, as far as i’m concerned you already have.”

guess he didn’t need my pep talk after all.

i can’t even tell you how much i look up to my dad. i always think to myself when facing hard challenges, “what would my dad do?” and i always know exactly what that would be. he has taught me so many valuable lessons about life, about not backing down, never quitting, and most importantly- that if i believe in myself, i can do anything. and because he has instilled this in me, i truly believe that i can conquer anything that life throws at me.

when i was a kid i always thought he was invincible, kinda like a superhero.

i still think that.

(if you’re interested in reading his thoughts on the race and seeing some pics… go here)

the reason we were all together

Posted by joana 16 Oct 2010 1 Comment »
the reason we were all together

karen’s baptism. londyn’s blessing. happiness and joy. erik’s the man.

that’s all i have to say about that.
(-forrest gump)